In Christ Alone

Kaitlyn and Blair are sound asleep in the hotel room beside me. My sweet boys are back in Muskegon having peaceful dreams of super heroes and trucks and here I sit awake. How do you sleep on a night like tonight?

Tomorrow morning my sweet angel at just 3 months old will have open heart surgery. Just typing those words makes my chest tight and I have to remind myself to breath. She's my hero, the love of my life! I thank God for her each day! Tonight I'm struggling with a lot of internal turmoil and the ONLY thing that is getting me through is turning it all over to God.

In Christ alone I place my trust!

Today Katie had pre op all day. We arrived at 8:30. The morning started with a chest x-ray. That was uncomfortable to watch. She wasn't in any pain or discomfort though, she didn't seem to mind. I'll post a picture of that crazy contraption later, they had to strap her in sitting up to get a good picture. You would think with all the modern technology they could come up with a better way to get good x-rays. Next was a sedated echo. She took some oral medication and drifted off to sleep. They did a very thorough job, it lasted about an hour. Next we fed her and met with a Cardiologist where we talked more about her heart defect (AVSD) and surgery. The day ended with blood work. That was the worst part and the only time she felt pain. I was just about to ask for another phlebotomist when she finally got a vein. After that we went to our room and got settled. She was so happy tonight. Thank goodness she has know idea what the morning brings. I will write more tomorrow with surgery updates.

While your praying for Kaitlyn please say an extra prayer for my Mom tonight. This afternoon she was diagnosed with Lymphoma. I'm not quite sure why all this is happening like this. Mom, I'm sorry I couldn't be with you today. A girl is never to old to want their Mom, I sure wish you could be here. Kaitlyn will be better soon and we are going to help you fight this. I Love you!