Monday, November 16, 2009

In Christ Alone

Kaitlyn and Blair are sound asleep in the hotel room beside me. My sweet boys are back in Muskegon having peaceful dreams of super heroes and trucks and here I sit awake. How do you sleep on a night like tonight?

Tomorrow morning my sweet angel at just 3 months old will have open heart surgery. Just typing those words makes my chest tight and I have to remind myself to breath. She's my hero, the love of my life! I thank God for her each day! Tonight I'm struggling with a lot of internal turmoil and the ONLY thing that is getting me through is turning it all over to God.

In Christ alone I place my trust!

Today Katie had pre op all day. We arrived at 8:30. The morning started with a chest x-ray. That was uncomfortable to watch. She wasn't in any pain or discomfort though, she didn't seem to mind. I'll post a picture of that crazy contraption later, they had to strap her in sitting up to get a good picture. You would think with all the modern technology they could come up with a better way to get good x-rays. Next was a sedated echo. She took some oral medication and drifted off to sleep. They did a very thorough job, it lasted about an hour. Next we fed her and met with a Cardiologist where we talked more about her heart defect (AVSD) and surgery. The day ended with blood work. That was the worst part and the only time she felt pain. I was just about to ask for another phlebotomist when she finally got a vein. After that we went to our room and got settled. She was so happy tonight. Thank goodness she has know idea what the morning brings. I will write more tomorrow with surgery updates.

While your praying for Kaitlyn please say an extra prayer for my Mom tonight. This afternoon she was diagnosed with Lymphoma. I'm not quite sure why all this is happening like this. Mom, I'm sorry I couldn't be with you today. A girl is never to old to want their Mom, I sure wish you could be here. Kaitlyn will be better soon and we are going to help you fight this. I Love you!


  1. I seriously am still amazed at the calm I felt in the waiting room knowing how many prayers were being said from family, friends, & even blogging strangers. God is amazing and He'll be there watching over little Kaitlyn. You'll feel it. (And they sedate them before they place any IV's, so Kaitlyn won't feel an ounce of pain!)

  2. Oh you poor thing. I am sorry to hear about your mom and especially at this time. Hang in there. Yes I remember pre op well. I also know that we had to use that contraption for x rays to. I will be praying for you. I know it is hard, but we will all support you through this time. Now when I think back on the night before surgery I can remember it so well. I just watched my son sleep and cuddled beside him all night, it was surreal. My tip,never be afraid to ask questions about why they are doing something or asking for extra pain meds for her if she needs it. I will be praying for you and for a speedy recovery.

  3. Anything you need jenee, I'm here. I have been through the sickness with my mother so if you want to talk please call. You are a strong woman. I admire you, your kids are so lucky to have such a wonderful mother. I cant give you any advice because you are handling this with such grace already. Please call me if you need anything. I LOVE YOU!!! ~Cheyne

  4. I am thinking of you as I have been since you left and praying for your safe return and kaitlyn's speedy recovery. And now I will add your mom to my prayers! I am so sorry about your mother's news. I cried when I read your entry and my son, Wyatt climbed up on my lap and hugged me and said "mom I want to sit on your lap forever" That right there is what gets me through the hard times and I know that that is what will get you through yours. A smile from lily can make my worst day better. I asked everyone who follows lily on carepages to pray for kaitlyn and I will ask them to pray for your mom too. Until then I will be waiting for the good news on kaitlyn's surgery and continue to pray for you and your family. Stay strong Jenee. Just when you think you have had enough you will find the strength to deal with more. I had a lesson in this recently and I am looking forward to your return home so we can deal with all of this and learn together! Take care of yourselves! angie